Trying to Find Myself

I try to "find myself," the real me, and when I feel as if I have found it, I try to show it off, then realizing the very need to show it proves it is just another mask used to keep the terrified man down and hidden fromt he rest of the world, so I do not get "found out."

I did this on the RH forums, showing them I know what I am doing, basically a "I haev got it figured out" mentality, despite the fact that I do not. My shadow or false man is afraid of being discovered as that merely a distorted misrepresentation of me. There its core is nothing like me and defining itself as false.